societal worthlessness. being beautiful stinks.

Is this seriously what it has become? Depending on society to tell you , that you are worth something? I sit here in disbelief, that I could actually be thinking this. I have waited for society to accept me for who I am for years.

I have been brain washed ( as many of you have as well im sure ) to believe that I am not good enough, if I am not a size two. Even if I am a size two, then they tell me, you REALLY should be a zero, but we'll work on that.

Of course most of our families and friends, reassure us, that we are good enough, and that size doesn't matter, but does it matter?
I will never be good enough. good enough for society that is. I feel the blatent stares from people, silently judging my outfits, my size, my hair, the way i carry myself, but i carry myself in a different way, then they may understand.

Because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I have begun on a long and hard journey, to see the beauty in everyone. To see God in people, most people walk over. And I think that journey really starts with ourselves.

I'm sure there is nothing greater we could achieve then two things. To live like Christ, and two, to see Beauty and love in all things.

Maybe someone out there can relate to what I am going to say now. This process needs to begin with myself. I need to see the beauty and love inside myself before I can find it in others, which is something I personally struggle with.

How hard is it to love myself, when all i hear everyday, from music, tv, radio, weight loss commercials, silent judgings and videos is that I am not good enough.

Yet God made ME in his image. Nothing more and nothing less. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. But why can't I realise that, that is good enough?

What is beauty? Societal Worthlessness brings me to the point, that they have defined my beauty as being not enough. Beauty is not eating, fake nails, fake smile, boyfriend after boyfriend, long blonde straight hair, short skirt, low shirts, model in New York, too good for you. Needless to say, i have Failed at all these things.

I am unique and original, so how do i define beauty?

Beauty is making people smile, being real, wearing clothes that fit, genuinely loving, caring, giving. Beauty is in Christ, it is different in every person. It is hidden, and waits to be revealed. It is locked in a girls heart, waiting for someone to dig deep enough to see it. And eventually that beauty pours out. Everywhere, to everyone, and everyone can see it.

So beauty is different for everyone? Then how can we define it? We Cant. Because the definition is always changing, per person, per heart, from girl to women, from boy to man. Because yes, boys have beauty too.

So maybe its time for us to start trying to unlock that beauty in everyone.

To prove to others that they are worth it, and they are more than enough.

Lets stop trying to be accepted by society, with our millions of clothes, our judging our gossip and remember, that we really just need to accept ourselves. We are all made in one image.

Fearfully and wonderfully made.

Bree.