I see God.

I am learning. I am growing. I am becoming. I am faithful. I am a girl after God's own heart.

I have been so overwhelmed for the past few weeks, but I feel like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders. today.

Ive been in school for about a month already, and i still love it. I wake up every day with my heart wide open, ready to change. To transform into a person, that shows people who Christ is, by just being. As overwhelming as four classes, two days of nannying, and lots of homework is, I am excited about where God is taking me.

This week, I have begun learning what it means to be waiting on God. My Dad surprised me with paying for tickets to San Diego with his airmiles, So i could go back to Tijuana with my friend Lisa. Oh God, thank you, what could be more amazing then that ? So in the excitement i emailed the palace my flight info. And waited. for three days i heard nothing. And finally i got an email, saying that they changed their minds, they have no room for us, and the kids are getting old enough to care for themselves.

I have never been more devestated. I felt SO called to be there, dispite how i was treated, dispite how hard it was, I felt God calling me to Tijuana, and now it is taken away. So i had to tell my friend to cancel her tickets, and hope she didnt lose any money, and cancel mine as well. In the midst of this confusion, I began to pray, harder than ive ever prayed before. I began to cry out, and i realised God must know what he is doing. I KNOW he knows what he's doing, and i felt my patience growing.

What a challenging week. But i have been so blessed. Over the passed month, i have made an effort to get to know this guy I knew, knew of, and attended church with, but never really talked to. He has been such a blessing and he has no idea.

When i see him, i feel like i am staring into the eyes of my God. In the midst of his hurting, his longing, and hardship, he is still willing to give everything he has to other people. There is something about him, that just screams I am apart of something different, and it draws me closer to him.

I am blessed to have met such a person, that shows me such amazing love, and demonstrates God to me all the time.

Stir it up in our hearts lord.

Lord have your way with us.

Bree.