thus begins the search for something greater, a real love for herself as she was created.

May you find and take everything from the writings of a girl who is still searching.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

deep down inside.

And its been a while since i have been able to sit down and organise all my thoughts. but here it goes.
Since being home, its been kind of a struggle to keep my head above water. Ive been doing alright health wise. the antibiotics have been doing their job for now, until they can figure out what to do about my tonsils.
Its definitely hard to be re-immersed into such a greedy society. Where everyone is so caught up in getting more. And few are satisfied with what they have. For 6 weeks i lived in a small room , eating the same things every day, 2 times a day, wearing only the clothes i could pack in my small bag. And i was happy. God placed on my heart that i needed to live simply. So when my camera was broken, and my ipod stolen, it encouraged me to pray more often. Spend more time submersed in the culture. Spend more time knee deep in my bible.
Thats why i love Awaken.
Because not only does it challenge me to be a better person, a person part of a bigger picture, but the community is striving to live souly for God, to help the environment, to save lives, clothe children, feed those who are hungry, provide shelter for those who need it . And isnt that the bigger picture?
Isnt that what we are called to do?
After reading Daniel chapter 6, i was so encouraged. There is a part in Daniel chapter 6 that says " he still prays" and that is what stuck out to me.
Everyone at some point in their life hits rock bottom. Where its hard for them to pray, or to even just find God, and what he wants in their lives. And in those times we forget to pray, we grow distant, but in this chapter it really emphasized for me that we need to continuously pray to the God we serve continually, for he will rescue us.
My life is complicated, but my faith is not. Because i know im not alone, and im ready for the next chapter in my life.
Bree.

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