thus begins the search for something greater, a real love for herself as she was created.

May you find and take everything from the writings of a girl who is still searching.

Friday, September 28, 2007

day three and four

i dont really know where to start, anywhere would be good but i have so many emotions that its hard to spit them all out.
i still havent found my place. i feel like the ladies who work in baby central , dont want me, OR need me, so they arent very nice to me, only a few of them are, but when i dont know where my place is, its easier and easier for me to be homesick. i hate feeling like they are judging my every move.
Bernice has 2 names apparently, and all the ladies now call her Mirah. i like to call her turtle. When shes awake, she will lay on my stomach and stick out her little tounge and move her neck and head in and out. she is about 5pounds of nothing, so its all skin. she is what keeps me going i think. when i find her crying and pick her up, and she smiles, and responds to my kisses, and my voice, thats when i know im helping her.
As for me, im still alittle homesick. its really hard being here, when you feel so alone, but it has helped me turn to God alot more. I met a girl yesterday named Yohanna and she speaks english really well, so she promised to help me with my spanish if i teach her more english and help her with her homework .
Lucia wants me to sleep in baby central all the time, but Connie told me only to sleep there Monday and Tuesday or if Anna doesnt show up, which is frequently happening.
Im excited for church on Sunday, and Sunday is also my day off, so i will go to church, then maybe go downtown for a bit.
As exciting as Beans and tortillas is 4 days in a row, 2 meals a day, i think it might be nice to buy a few groceries of my own .
i miss home, and im hoping it gets easier. i know people are praying for me, and i really appreciate it. i need it.
im so thankful for what i have , its not even funny. I dont think i have ever fully realised everything i have. i mean, at home i dont need a " clean water tap"

i miss everyone alot. but i survived 2 more days.



Bree

2 comments:

Crayonline said...

Stay Strong Beautiful. Your doing amazing things and we all love you. Your place will come in time, and all of these children will be impacted by what you are adding to their lives. and always remember. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, and i love you stalker #2

Luke said...

Bree,

So crazy to hear about your life in Tijuana. I think spending time in a place called "baby central" would be about as scary as it gets for me!
Thinking of and Praying lots for you. Your an example to me here in Calgary.

Luke