lent & love

Sunday was the first sunday of the lent season. I was extremely excited to go to Awaken to experience something very powerful and eye opening, and left with nothing short of the perfect envisioning of how lent should be.
Scott was back to start us off on the right foot, which was nice, and the leadership team did a fantastic job at creating a new, simple environment helping us to focus on the meaning of this lent season. Lately i have really been learning the true meaning of living for God , no matter what the cost. Being involved with Awaken is something that God has placed in my heart for quite some time, but i have come to realise that it might not be something that he has placed on the hearts of other youth within the church. Sometimes when God calls you do to something, or to be somewhere, its difficult, you feel that if you were to just forget it, and do what everyone else is doing, then maybe, just maybe it would make your journey alittle easier. but thats the thing. its YOUR journey. Its not the journey of your best friend or neighbor, but rather, the path in which you are taking, to live for God, and to live in Christ.
Im not going to lie to you. At first i was alittle naive and thought that following my heart, and building relationships within the Awaken community may be easier then everyone else thought, but i was wrong.
I began to notice that the journey's of my friends, fellow youth, and those who i spend my time with, were very different from mine, in fact , i found very few whose path was leading them to following Awaken and it was extremely discouraging. It was discouraging that i began a phase in my journey that did not include people that i love, people that i have spent the last two years getting to know, and it took me a while to realise that that is okay.
Although our paths are different, although our hearts have been called to different aspects of what God wants us to do, does not mean we have to discontinue relationships with those who have not yet found what God has wanted them to do, what he has placed on their hearts. Awaken for me is a place of comfort, growing, and learning to live in Christ. It is a community of people who want to see something different happen in the church that they involve themselves in , less politics, more God. Less focus on the church building and more on how we can affect and help those outside the building. And its an amazing feeling to be apart of something like that.
It comes down to that decision on where i belong, not where i want to be, but where God wants me, where i will be able to show his love, and act on my faith, not just sit around and do nothing.
Lent is a time of prayer, especially for me, prayer that its okay not to know where i am supposed to be, who i am supposed to be. Although i have some idea on where God wants me, only time will tell, prayer will answer, and God will call.
Seeing Scott Cripps was definitely refreshing, and it was nice to talk to him.
Lent is going to be a good time for me, and im excited about where i will end up.

Breee